Day 17

Today has been a tough day...two of my closest friends lost a loved friend and I was who got the job of letting them know. He was only 23 years old and has been battling some inner demons for a long time. This morning he succombed to those demons and took his own life. He made a very profound final letter to friends and family on his facebook page in an attempt to help them be able to better understand his reasoning and to help them not hurt quite as much. I don't think that is even a possibility. I just pray that all those who loved him can find some peace :(

I only had the chance to be around him a few times, but he was a great guy. He loved his friends and made you feel happy in his presence. The demons he fought were strong, especially those that were inflicted upon him by people who supposedly loved him and were to be trusted. How tragic :( If only he had been able to continue his battle and come out the victor.

Life is hard. It is harder from some than others. No matter how hard it gets or how lost you seem it is crucial to remember that there is always someone on your side. God is here...in all we do, all we feel, the actions we take, the pain we go through, the triumphs, the blessings, and everything in between. Reach out to him! Ask him for forgiveness, for guidance, for healing, and for support and it will be given. He will do all he can and place people in your life to help you through...you just have to have faith.

We all have our demons. Internal and external. However hard it is to admit them, please do. Ask for help. Find a friend. Find a pastor. Find a family member. Find God! Don't try to win the battle on your own. There are people who want nothing more than to help you. The old saying "no man is an island" is so very true. We can't make it on our own, we aren't supposed to!

David, I hope you have found some peace. I pray that you are no longer hurting. I pray that your family and friends are able to somehow come to terms with the decision that you made today. May they find solace in the Lord during this trying time.

God Bless,
Tammy