This week I will be teaching my Sunday School class while the regular leader is out of town. The lesson is called "Choosing God's Forgiveness" and it focuses on Hebrews 12: 1-11. So far a few of the daily readings had these questions:
* What in your life is hindering you from following Christ in obedience?
* Would you say that your eyes are fixed on Jesus or on something else?
* What causes you to "grow weary and lose heart" the most in your life?
All of these are questions that I must admit I am reluctant to answer. Not because I am unsure of the answers, but just the opposite. I do know and I ashamed of the answers. I know that by putting my answers on paper or talking about them will be an admission of guilt. I am guilty of letting the world and its "treasures" come before my Lord. Who wants to openly admit that?
I realized that I was falling and deeper and deeper into a pit about 6 months ago. That is when I started actively seeking out somewhere to worship that I was happy with, a group of like-minded people to share Sunday School with, and I began a daily devotion to seek out God's Word. You can't know what you're doing wrong until you understand the guidelines.
I am actively working to get my eyes set on God now. However, it is hard to know when you are simply living your life and doing what is expected of you (by other earth dwellers aka people) and when you are straying from the Lord. I feel that I am back on track and I am anxious to see where I end up. Even with all the anticipation of the future I still have a few things that cause me "to grow weary and lose heart"...
These issues weigh on my mind daily and are things that I put a great deal of focus on. What to do? How to do it? Who to do it with? Etc, etc, etc. There's so much fear, unease, and lack of commitment to move forward. Most of the time, a forward move isn't in the picture because of other things that need to happen. You know...the old domino effect.
Some day I hope to have things straightened out. Some day I hope that my answers to the above questions will be NOT APPLICABLE. Seeing that I am a human being though I don't think that will occur anytime soon, but at least I am aware of the situation and am actively working on myself :) Sometimes, I think that is all we can do.
God Bless,
Tammy
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