Day 5

It was such a nice day today. My mom turned 65 today so I took the day off of work to spend with her. We planned out decorations for a shower we are hosting for my cousin who got married, bought the necessary items, had a nice dinner with my dad and brother, and had a good time playing scrabble. She got a bit upset that I didn't let her win :) Sadly, my competitive bone is too strong!

During our day we spent time talking about the business we run together and many other life issues. One of our discussions focused on what I want to do with my life. Last week, the pastor at church gave a sermon on listening to God. Sadly, I don't feel that too many people do that anymore. We spend too much second guessing messages we get because we think, "surely not, that couldn't be what He wants me to do."

Many times over the years I have thought about learning more about the Bible and being a Christian. So much as it has crossed my mind to go to seminary. I wouldn't necessarily want to be a preacher, but possibly an education director (given my undergraduate degree in elementary education) or a chaplain at a nursing facility. I had never voiced this to anyone, but today out of the blue my mom says, "Have you ever thought about going to seminary?" Have I truly? No. Has it crossed my mind? Several times. Is this one of those times that God is talking to me? Am I willing to listen? Hmmmmm......

I got to thinking back over my life and some of the boys/men that I have been drawn to and/or dated. My first blind date when I was 15 is now a preacher, a high school friend and someone that I have always thought a lot of is now a pastor, a lifelong friend works in the ministry, and my one and only serious adult relationship was with an evangelical speaker. Seems to be that I am drawn to people of faith! Does that mean that I have some deeper feeling of wanting to look into serving the church myself? I don't know, but it is something to ponder on :)

As you can see I seem to have issue with finding my true calling: teacher, store owner/operator, some random unknown job yet to be determined, seminary, who knows what else may cross my mind. I hope to have the patience to figure it all out and do what is best for myself and where I can best utilize my spiritual gifts.

God Bless,
Tammy