Days 9/10

The past couple of days have brought a bit of new insight into a couple of areas:

First, I found out that a job I was really hoping for was given to someone else. It was nice to get an explanation from the person who did the hiring as to why I wasn't chosen. They happen to be a long time friend of mine whom I have been doing business with over the course of running my store. The explanation was this: they were unsure that the job was really something I wanted vs. being a way to get out working my store all the time. I guess I didn't do a great job at letting them know just how interested I was. However, they let me know that should another position open up later this year that it is mine as long as I am still interested. Kind of a bummer, but I suppose it is for the best. That door wasn't meant to open which means another was is. They also pointed out that part of my inability to find a focus for my future lies in the fact that I have many interests and am very intelligent. It was really nice to have someone tell me that I can't find direction because I am capable of doing so many things. :) I hadn't ever looked at my situation from that prospective.

Secondly, we had our first weigh in at "Lose it for Life" tonight and I have lost 5 pounds in just 4 days! :) What a blessing! It reaffirms that I can indeed successfully follow this plan and that it isn't that hard to do. I am always concerned that diets won't work and I tend to easily tire of them. Well, so far so good! I should be able to continue on with enthusiasm. There are many weeks/months ahead and lots more work to do, but I am looking forward to it! :)

So, as I look to the future there are still unanswered questions, goals to reach, and lessons to learn about myself and many other things. I am only at the beginning of my journey and am looking forward to what all be will revealed as I travel down this self imposed road of self discovery, growth, and seeking the spirit.

God Bless,
Tammy